Missing you like crazy
I miss you sweetie so much, especially these days. I went to our favorite restaurant on our anniversary and bought myself a nice thick steak as you would have wanted me to have. I am taking us back to New Orleans soon. Cleaning up, I found so many notes you wrote not just to me but about things in general, pool tourneys you ran for Kenny at Planet 9 Ball the wheel chair tournaments handicapping players books you ordered, Soprano seasons you watched on DVD, cards you wrote for special occassions to me. I got a laugh or two from them, and some I shed quite a few tears over. I think you are proud of me these days. You said it before you left me, that I was a strong person with lots of life ahead of me and I will do fine on my own. Wow, I have been faced with more challenges then I think you had in mind when you said that to me. I am doing it, and I do feel your presence around me. I wake with new thoughts that were not in my head the nights before, and I am sure you have visited me and put them there. Unfortunately I sleep so damn sound I did not see you. I hate to leave our memories here because most of life was here in Tampa. We only had about 3 years together in New Orleans. I will go back to our places and try to squeeze into those memories for as long as I can and as long as it feels right. Thank goodness for your kind friends on AZB who have offered their friendship, support and opened their hearts to me.
I love you Mr. Doug always will. Come see me soon.
I miss you sweetie so much, especially these days. I went to our favorite restaurant on our anniversary and bought myself a nice thick steak as you would have wanted me to have. I am taking us back to New Orleans soon. Cleaning up, I found so many notes you wrote not just to me but about things in general, pool tourneys you ran for Kenny at Planet 9 Ball the wheel chair tournaments handicapping players books you ordered, Soprano seasons you watched on DVD, cards you wrote for special occassions to me. I got a laugh or two from them, and some I shed quite a few tears over. I think you are proud of me these days. You said it before you left me, that I was a strong person with lots of life ahead of me and I will do fine on my own. Wow, I have been faced with more challenges then I think you had in mind when you said that to me. I am doing it, and I do feel your presence around me. I wake with new thoughts that were not in my head the nights before, and I am sure you have visited me and put them there. Unfortunately I sleep so damn sound I did not see you. I hate to leave our memories here because most of life was here in Tampa. We only had about 3 years together in New Orleans. I will go back to our places and try to squeeze into those memories for as long as I can and as long as it feels right. Thank goodness for your kind friends on AZB who have offered their friendship, support and opened their hearts to me.
I love you Mr. Doug always will. Come see me soon.