Been playing seriously (with my own cue and several hours of practice per week etc.) for about a year now. Had entered like 4-5 tournaments and left with 2 defeats on most of them. After each defeat I always got a bit frustrated about my performance but then on the next day I would start working even harder to go to the next level and not do the same mistakes again.
I entered a big tournament recently (with some pros and some very respectable players) and I did very well with 3 victories over people who would normally beat me. I was concentrated and played very efficiently without any big mistakes in all 3 games. I then lost to a pro, and went back to the losers bracket for my game that would get me to the final 8 which would earn me cash as well (first money earned). My opponent was slightly better than me but if I played like I did on the the previous days, I was going to beat him. But I was terrible, I missed an easy 9 and an easy 8, I played bad safeties, I missed balls and positions I shouldn't have. It was like I went back 6 months in my game. After the tournament everyone was like "congratulations you did very well", "you should be proud of yourself" etc. etc. but I still feel I want to snap my cue and eat it. I don't remember being so angry with my game for a long time. I think about it and say to myself that I performed very well overall and shouldn't be that angry but then I think about the money I almost won and still feel I want to never touch my cue again...and it's not like I needed the money.
Am I a freak or something?
I entered a big tournament recently (with some pros and some very respectable players) and I did very well with 3 victories over people who would normally beat me. I was concentrated and played very efficiently without any big mistakes in all 3 games. I then lost to a pro, and went back to the losers bracket for my game that would get me to the final 8 which would earn me cash as well (first money earned). My opponent was slightly better than me but if I played like I did on the the previous days, I was going to beat him. But I was terrible, I missed an easy 9 and an easy 8, I played bad safeties, I missed balls and positions I shouldn't have. It was like I went back 6 months in my game. After the tournament everyone was like "congratulations you did very well", "you should be proud of yourself" etc. etc. but I still feel I want to snap my cue and eat it. I don't remember being so angry with my game for a long time. I think about it and say to myself that I performed very well overall and shouldn't be that angry but then I think about the money I almost won and still feel I want to never touch my cue again...and it's not like I needed the money.
Am I a freak or something?
