I don’t recommend paying for the Facebook thing. When the wnt.tv site goes live I will subscribe and report back. I typically try to pay with paypal or apple pay so there is at least one layer between my credit card and these media sites.
It’s nice to finally have a crowd after all the empty stands at the recent events. This is the only event my family bothers to watch with me because in their words, it’s the only one that seems like a sport.
The inner game of tennis and the pleasure of small motions are two books that might have some insight for you.
Exposure therapy as mentioned above (go out and play more) to desensitize you to the conditions of competitive play was helpful for me.
I suggest reaching out to Taom and letting them know. They are very responsive and it will be helpful for them to keep tabs on people who might have reactions to their products.