About a week ago, Blud, you and a bunch of good people sent me messages of support and kindness. I was overwhelmed. You urged me to ignore the BS artists and haters. It gave me faith that there is more good in people than bad. Reading posts by people like Sarah Rousey and JMB showed me there was some light in this world. But what I really realized after all this conflict and contradiction was I was also adding to the BS and the hating. I began to realize that me posting and my posts were more important to me than it should. Where as no one would give me that much time to my opinions at work or at play. I was a big shot on the board. Hundreds if not thousands of people would read my words and I would cause a ripple in a pond. Perhaps this is why we see some posts. Because if you had said the same things at home you might get a "Uhuh Daddy can I watch tv now" or at the pool hall-"Yeah right are you ready to give up the seven and eight" or at work-"Uh excuse me Yoba Im looking for the mens room key right now". But here on the board we can tell the world "Hey listen to me! Im a champ. Im an expert! I am somebody!" and we can get some response. Now I am not accusing anyone but myself. So I realized hey I dont have anything really earth shaking to say or that important. I still cant run a 100 balls, make a ball on the break and get shape for the one all the time, or have a high run of 15 on the billiard table. I found that coming home and firstly hooking up to AZ forum and seeing what others were saying to me about my posts were just egotistical and frankly a waste of time. Now I dont discount being able to meet people on board and get their views about a sport you love and just to schmooze about pool but I was getting into some kind of trap of taking myself way to serious. It was taking time away from my game and my family. And after all its Blood, Blud, Blood thats important. Family and friends first. Fortunately I had gotten a personal call from Danny Diliberto and talked to Pat Fleming about the Derby. These two guys are the really the nicest pool pros I have ever had the privilege to talk with. Their humanity and professionalism just exudes from them as they truly love the game. They never boast about their accomplishments or ability but about what their hopes are for the game. They never put you down for your level and believe me I wish I had a tenth of their pool expertise. But coupled with the kind posts you all sent and with meeting these 2 great men I realized that all this is BS and I didnt want to be apart of this. Now as you know I am Asian and think that racist words or comments dont have any place on this board nor vulgarity and such. But I aint trying to change the world. If you want to use slurs or think I am being sensitive that is your perogative. This is no way directed to you Blud. I just hope that there would be more leadership in terms of the Board itself by the webmaster. So lets get on with talking about the game. I still have a few questions to ask and things to sort out about my game.
PS The only time I hear of Leonard Bludworth is when the Professor, the great Grady Mathews talked highly about your cues. Thats good enough for me.
PS The only time I hear of Leonard Bludworth is when the Professor, the great Grady Mathews talked highly about your cues. Thats good enough for me.