I think if you want to get better, you will. I was glad to see you play an musical instrument. I did also. It makes it easier for me to discipline myself now to practice alone on what I want to work on. When I was well prepared I always played my music well. I played in state competitions. I also keep a notebook where I write down what works for me, and what doesn't. The AZ forum has also been a big help. They always seem to be discussing things that I am having problems with. Distractions and focus have been 2 that I could relate to lately.