My condolences go out to you Jenn.
I have lost 8 pets in my life, and i bawled my brains out for each and every one of them. It is definitley tough to deal with the void that is left when a pet leaves us. Not only in ones heart, but physically as well. It is a very lonley time.
I think the hardest part for me each time, was that after a solid period of mourning, when i had pretty much recovered, i still had this love and affection to give out, but no pet to lavish it on. I felt almost guilty that my pet would be looking down on me, and i would be hurting his/her feelings if i were to give that affection to another animal.
I think each time, i said to myself, that i was never going to get another animal cause i didn't want to feel that way again.
But invariably, i'd see a pet in some pet store, or know someone who's pet just had a litter, go to visit, and then have my heart break as some cute little superfluff would look at me, and i'd go all to pieces. Just such a softy when it comes to animals.
So if he had a good life, you take pride in knowing that you gave him love and affection that was unequalled, and that if they could speak and thank you, they most definitely would.
So with a name like Darth. (and you know he's strong with the force), you have to imagine it's like the end of Return of the Jedi, where Obi Wan, Yoda, and Darth aren't really dead, but are still there in spirit.
So know that when your at some tournament, plugging away, or at home watching tv, or whatever, that he's watching over you wagging his tail, hoping that your happy.
The hurt gets easier with time.
SUPERSTAR