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Fastrockyf

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I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
 
Fastrockyf said:
I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
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Hang in there Rocky ….
 
Fastrockyf said:
I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
Click to expand...

Dude, I don’t know where you live, so I can’t give specifics, but reach out for help. There are services available, staffed by people who care.

I can’t imagine the pain you’re in and the struggles you’ve been through, but I’ve had my battles, some of them seemingly hopeless. I developed panic disorder when I was in my early 20’s. Went from being school captain, debating team captain, winner of countless public speaking competitions, studying law at uni (Diamond Dave’s mom wasn’t joking when she said that), living overseas by myself, traveling around Egypt when I was 19, etc, etc.

Within a month of having my first panic attack, I went from all of that to not being able to drive a car, catch a bus, walk to the convenience store, play snooker, sometimes even walk out my front door, all for fear that I would have a panic attack and stop breathing/pass out/shit my pants and all the other awful things a mind gripped by fear can imagine. I couldn’t sleep, and when I did, I woke up in the middle of a panic attack. Life was hell, and to go from everything in control with a clear future ahead of me, to not being able to even meet my friends, was hell.

And I couldn’t see how life was ever going to get better.

It did get better. I know my experience isn’t a guarantee for anyone else, but life is fluid and in a constant state of change. You can roll with that and find your own path with the skills and abilities you have.

25 years after my first panic, I’m back living in a foreign country, driving a car, flying in planes, playing pool, meeting friends, and doing all the normal things I thought were gone forever. It certainly hasn’t been easy getting here, and it has taken commitment to making a new life that I can be content with.

I know what it’s like to see the tunnel close and the light fade away. Don’t give up hope. Hang in there. The fact that you have names to say goodbye to means you aren’t alone.

EDIT: My new profile picture now seems horribly inappropriate 🤔
 
Fastrockyf said:
I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
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6 years ago you started a thread about playing the best pool of your entire life. So did you peak at 12 or 30?

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logical said:
6 years ago you started a thread about playing the best pool of your entire life. So did you peak at 12 or 30?

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Huh, guess I should have done my research first.
 
Count me as a "never was" when it comes to pool. I accept that. But I wont quit and give up either.
 
Fastrockyf said:
I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
Click to expand...
After giving this much deep thought, I can only say:

Geeze, sounds like you're really screwed!
 
I wish I could run 9 racks of 9ball.
When I was 12 my high run was 3 balls. Fifty years later I can run a rack, but not racks.
I’ve never was but, I’m healthy, I love pool and my wife loves me, (most of the time).
I guess I’m Lucky
Better to be lucky than good
 
Fastrockyf said:
I loved this game more then any thing in the World it was the true love of my life and it was taken away from me at a very you age
When I was 12 years old I started to win local tournaments always looked older I'd bring a older friend with me and people would think he was my son lol
By the the time 13 I had To massively herniated disks in my lower back family never took me to see a doctor who new that it be such a huge problem in my life I wound up with candle syndrome that's when the nerves are so compressed that they wind up paralyzed Permanently bowl and bladder
By the time I was 18 and could get surgery on my own it was to late it was all over for
I tried to play again in my twentys it was a joke can't play in that much pain and on those meds
I ran 9 racks of 9ball when I was 12 years old now I can't make 3 balls in a row Consistently
And now I'm 36 years old and I among dieing its all over no more anything I've never even been on vacation in my life
My son and wife hate me I'm useless and all I can think about is how much I miss this stupid game
And the people that came with it by Tony bye Eddie buy Chrissy by Joe buy one pocket crew
Click to expand...

Could be worse.

You could live in New Jersey.
 
Lmao I said I tried to pick the game back up a few years ago my body couldn't keep up no matter what I did
Has for a go found me thing guys I never asked any body for help unless some one has a healthy liver to give me
I'm just blowing off steam behind a keyboard
 
Shuddy said:
Dude, I don’t know where you live, so I can’t give specifics, but reach out for help. There are services available, staffed by people who care.

I can’t imagine the pain you’re in and the struggles you’ve been through, but I’ve had my battles, some of them seemingly hopeless. I developed panic disorder when I was in my early 20’s. Went from being school captain, debating team captain, winner of countless public speaking competitions, studying law at uni (Diamond Dave’s mom wasn’t joking when she said that), living overseas by myself, traveling around Egypt when I was 19, etc, etc.

Within a month of having my first panic attack, I went from all of that to not being able to drive a car, catch a bus, walk to the convenience store, play snooker, sometimes even walk out my front door, all for fear that I would have a panic attack and stop breathing/pass out/shit my pants and all the other awful things a mind gripped by fear can imagine. I couldn’t sleep, and when I did, I woke up in the middle of a panic attack. Life was hell, and to go from everything in control with a clear future ahead of me, to not being able to even meet my friends, was hell.

And I couldn’t see how life was ever going to get better.

It did get better. I know my experience isn’t a guarantee for anyone else, but life is fluid and in a constant state of change. You can roll with that and find your own path with the skills and abilities you have.

25 years after my first panic, I’m back living in a foreign country, driving a car, flying in planes, playing pool, meeting friends, and doing all the normal things I thought were gone forever. It certainly hasn’t been easy getting here, and it has taken commitment to making a new life that I can be content with.

I know what it’s like to see the tunnel close and the light fade away. Don’t give up hope. Hang in there. The fact that you have names to say goodbye to means you aren’t alone.

EDIT: My new profile picture now seems horribly inappropriate 🤔
Click to expand...
I'm sorry you went through that stuff panic attacks I've head can be really life crushing
 
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