I am so tired of losing matches to 4s and 3s because of myself getting in my head - and feeling myself fall apart during matches without feeling like I can do anything about it.
I feel so pitiful because I study the game, and dedicate myself to playing pool and soooo many people who have watched me play have said things like:
*I've got the eye for pool, I just see it.
*I've got the dedication, and I want to learn all I can
*In another year or so I'll be able to string racks together like nobody's business
Everyone who's an advanced pool player that's seen me has said great things about my shooting ability and my playing ability.
It feels horrible to enter a match and not be able to play my best - it's not the winning or losing either, I'm upset because I'm not playing up to par with what I know I can do and it's depressing honestly. In matches I feel like I'm letting myself down and tonight, I played two APA matches and lost both horribly - one to a 4, and one to a 3.
Before I played my matches I played a game of one pocket and pocketed 8 balls in 3 innings - laser eyes, great focus, shooting incredibly.
Then I step to my matches and can't make anything.
As someone who dedicates himself to learning and mastering this game for the rest of his life it feels awful not being able to bring out everything I know when I play. My inner voice really brings everything to my consciousness so my subconscious isn't allowed to just get out there and shoot.
I lost horribly tonight - and I'm starting to feel like I can't maintain my game in matches anymore despite the useful information I've picked up about match-play and anxiety from CJ, The Colonel, ScottK, the Pleasures of Small Motions book - I feel like nothing is helping me just let my subconscious play in my matches and it's just really getting to me.
That's all I have to say.
-Richard
I feel so pitiful because I study the game, and dedicate myself to playing pool and soooo many people who have watched me play have said things like:
*I've got the eye for pool, I just see it.
*I've got the dedication, and I want to learn all I can
*In another year or so I'll be able to string racks together like nobody's business
Everyone who's an advanced pool player that's seen me has said great things about my shooting ability and my playing ability.
It feels horrible to enter a match and not be able to play my best - it's not the winning or losing either, I'm upset because I'm not playing up to par with what I know I can do and it's depressing honestly. In matches I feel like I'm letting myself down and tonight, I played two APA matches and lost both horribly - one to a 4, and one to a 3.
Before I played my matches I played a game of one pocket and pocketed 8 balls in 3 innings - laser eyes, great focus, shooting incredibly.
Then I step to my matches and can't make anything.
As someone who dedicates himself to learning and mastering this game for the rest of his life it feels awful not being able to bring out everything I know when I play. My inner voice really brings everything to my consciousness so my subconscious isn't allowed to just get out there and shoot.
I lost horribly tonight - and I'm starting to feel like I can't maintain my game in matches anymore despite the useful information I've picked up about match-play and anxiety from CJ, The Colonel, ScottK, the Pleasures of Small Motions book - I feel like nothing is helping me just let my subconscious play in my matches and it's just really getting to me.
That's all I have to say.
-Richard