going back a few decades I hated being the worst! Looking back on it now it seemed as if I was constantly worrying about what the others thought. For example if I had ball in hand with 4 balls I feared I was doing it wrong. But I would say being the worst had a major impact on my improvement process! I wouldn't say I had good coaching but it was better than nothing. I put the table time in outa league and became the 2nd from worst and so on.
Answering the question from op, as much as it sucked being the worst,id rather be there at any level of play so I could improve.