Well, here's the (non)answer to the $64K question.
My friends say I look much better at the table. I appeared pretty jacked up originally. I know that I FEEL much better. My stance is much more stable. I'm happy with my new grip. All of this has solved some of my vision problems.
BUT..........I have SO MUCH info swimming in my head at this point, I'm suffering from paralysis by analysis. Not to mention that I'm EXTREMELY competitive and VERY hard on myself. The problem has literally become worse before my very eyes upon joining NAPA before Tor. I think it's now compounded.
Why, you may ask?
On the NAPA website, I can see my overall rating in each discipline. I see "points per match". I see "Snaps on the Break". I see individual league leaders. I see Rackless leaders. I see Shutout leaders. Break & Runs. And so on.
I want SO BADLY to be at the top of every category.....that I'm beating myself up for not snapping the game ball in on every rack. Seriously. I'm immediately upset when I miss a ball or get out of shape and realize that I can't get a Break & Run. Then, when I lose a single game in the set, I'm pissed because I've lost my chance at a shutout. Hell, I'm immediately miffed when I don't win the opening lag, as that negates the possibility of a Rackless. God forbid I go on and lose the set.
I'm a mess mentally.
I see the patterns better than I ever have before. I generally know what I need to do. I even usually know how to hit it. But, I still have a problem executing things perfectly. Perfectly. PERFECTLY.
And that's my problem. I'm obsessive compulsive (which is great for my PSR), but it's hell at the table when you're constantly trying to be perfect in every way.
Oh yea, I also have an overinflated sense of how good I'm SUPPOSED to be with all the time I put into this. Strangely enough, I absolutely take responsibility for my actions and play.....rarely, if ever, blaming the rolls, but I keep telling myself, "You've done this and that. Practiced this many hours. Learned from this person. Now WHY can't you do this when you're supposed to????"
Very frustrating.
If anyone cares to watch NAPA ratings, you can type in my name and state (Wray....Arkansas) and follow my progress.
Yes, I'm a better player NOW than I was before. But, seeing actual results hasn't really happened yet, but it's only been a hair over a week since Tor left. I honestly think I'll be 2-3 balls better in 6 months, after it's all burned in and tested in competition.
My friend Butch is already 1-2 balls better (if not more), right out of the gate, from this 14 Day Experience. My time will come.
Tor's methods and knowledge are no joke.