JAM, I get what you are saying completely! I have had a huge passion for the game for a very long time, but after last night's events at a local shoot, I have to say that for me, the honeymoon is over. I'd have to say that the politics of it all is what has done me in.
About a month ago I attended a league meeting, and afterwards went over to the tavern for which I was going to be playing for....both 8 and 9 Ball. I stopped in to talk to the gal who was going to captain the team. I order up a beer, take a few sips during the course of conversation, head off to the bathroom, come back take a few more sips, and leave. About halfway home, I feel like I am just going to pass out cold behind the wheel. My husband found me 2 hours later passed out in the front seat of my car in the driveway. It was later determined that I had been slipped some GHB in my beer. Freaked me out pretty bad. As a result, I did not attend the weekly shoots I normally attend for a while. When I finally did, I was asked why I had not been attending and I relayed what had happened to me.
Next thing I know....I am being read the Riot Act by the gal who owns the tavern about me disrespecting her establishment and her clientele, oh, and I should seek medical attention!! I just stood there with my mouth agape. I then got my wits about me and told her that I was asked by a few people where I had been, and I told them what had happened, and I was in no way making a big deal out of what bar it happened in....and I would have thought that she would be more concerned that she might have a potential problem brewing.
Needless to say, I have opted out of playing for her tavern for either league...I just do not feel comfortable there anymore. So, now, the captain of the 9 Ball team calls and leaves a message for the president of the league that we are not going to have a team this year. Next thing I know, last week I am read the Riot Act, once again, about no one calling about us pulling the team. I look at him and I'm like, I was not the captain, it was not my responsibility to do this. You need to take this up with the captain.
Last night I find out that where I used to be invited to play in the area tournaments.....suddenly, there is a big tournament this coming weekend, and now I am on the 'outs', so to speak. When I asked about it, the guy running it, who is also the president of the 9 Ball league, acted as if I wasn't even there!! WTH?! At that point, although I was shooting well, I wasn't shooting as well as I can, and , I could have cared less, and just wanted the evening to end so I could go home.
All I ever wanted to do was just play. I have donated a whole lot of money at these weekly shoots just so I could do that....sometimes I came home in the money, sometimes not....I just wanted to play!!!
So, here I sit....utterly disillusioned by it all now. I used to have joy when I played...win or lose. The joy and the passion just aren't there for me right now. I hope I get it back.
Lisa