I'm certain that his original intentions were to monetize his hobby by growing it into a business. I'm also certain that he had personal demons resulting from his years as an EMT. I want to have sympathy for him but I don't feel any obligations to be sympathetic for ANYONE who knows what the right thing is, promises to do the right thing, and then doesn't honor his word.
Anything I own can be stolen from me, I can be drugged into giving up National secrets, I can be tortured to the point of losing my mind or faculties; the only thing I have that can NEVER be taken from me, and it's my most valuable posession, is my integrity. I discussed this concept several times with Matt. He repeatedly assured me that he understood and shared my view that each of us is the sole custodian of his own integrity. I therefore don't feel obligated to feel sorry for him.