Thanks to everyone for the thoughts and prayers, i'm not dieing, i have some nurlogical problems near my lumbar vertbra that keeps me in bed 20-22 hours a day for the past 2 years, I was into body building for years and I knew sine I was 10-12 I had back problems i'm 40 and I cant out run the problem, i spent 4/12 months in germany for medical help, in this area of medicine Germany is #1 in the world. i go back again in a few weeks for more lazer de-nervation, when they cut the right nerves i'm good, i've had 2 artifical disca and a fusion done 2 seperate operations that were necessary but didnt stop the pain, i have no appitate, libedo, etc, I can only play pool sometime, other time i cant leave the house for 2-3 days.
that my story, i'm not out options but my body is atrophyed away and all i want is to get fit again, i weigh 245, when i'm at the gym i'm between 235-265 with low body fat, "Fatboy" was an old name from years back, i've never been thin but i'm not round.
thanks again to everyone.