I like this. I'd also suggest 'Sports Psyching'.
I used to be the same way, never a 100 ball runner, but I would find ways to lose every tourney I ever entered.
I actually got over most of my performance anxiety by taking up a different sport--one which I got to play with and against world class players, while being a rank amateur.
It is funny, but when I knew I had no chance of winning if I played my best, it really allowed me to get out of my head and actually start playing my best without thinking of the final result, instead focusing on the process.
Good luck.
dld
It is funny, but when I knew I had no chance of winning if I played my best, it really allowed me to get out of my head and actually start playing my best without thinking of the final result, instead focusing on the process.
Neat how that works , funny sometimes how we learn things , usually by experience . I had a blind spot , took me a while to figure it out . In 84 i bought a new pickup , put chrome wheels on it , washed it regularly. Lived in some apartments and could see where my truck was from my patio and everytime i would here a door slammed i would get up and see if somebody had dropped a door on my new truck .
If i went to bed and was lying there waiting to go to sleep and i heard a car door shut , yep , you guessed it , i got up a looked . You better not be knocking dents in my new pickup , bastards !!! I started not sleeping as good and i worked a lot of overtime and had to be at work at 5 , even 3 sometimes on 12 hour days .
I started getting irritable , stressed out . I realized that pickup had more or less become my master , then i developed the attitude that i didn't care if somebody blew the damn thing up , and life become much easier.
Wish i could have carried that lesson over into other areas of my life , but we have tunnel vision and it usually takes a crisis to get us to turn our heads