Although not intentional, you've assigned yourself the role of "victim". Almost every day, you start a new thread with the common theme of feeling sorry for yourself, and day after day we try to cheer you up, and you might get a little emotional boost from it that keeps you going, but it wears off quickly.
The problem is that it doesn't get you anywhere, as its an endless cycle. You need to snap out of the victim role, and be thankful for what you have. Occasionally, someone tries to give you "tough love", which is probably what you really need, but you ignore it, or it comes out as an insult. Start giving yourself some tough love, and snap yourself out of this funk. When you find yourself feeling sorry for yourself, try to focus on the positive things in life and pool.
Not trying to be insulting here, and it is taken that way, I'm sorry. I do enjoy the other aspects of what you bring to this forum, and you seem like a nice guy.
The problem is that it doesn't get you anywhere, as its an endless cycle. You need to snap out of the victim role, and be thankful for what you have. Occasionally, someone tries to give you "tough love", which is probably what you really need, but you ignore it, or it comes out as an insult. Start giving yourself some tough love, and snap yourself out of this funk. When you find yourself feeling sorry for yourself, try to focus on the positive things in life and pool.
Not trying to be insulting here, and it is taken that way, I'm sorry. I do enjoy the other aspects of what you bring to this forum, and you seem like a nice guy.