That's terrible. When I'm in my drinking phases, I'm drinking about the same amount. Couple screwdrivers in the morning, beers throughout the day, jack and coke until bedtime (I like them strong too). I go through about a case or two of beer and a few bottles of liquor every week. Shutting it off for extended periods of time is easy enough for me, but I always trick myself into coming back slowly... That lasts about two days then I'm at full drinking speed again. If I could snap my fingers and make it so I can only drink two nights a week I would. I'm all or nothing.I hear ya and completely understand. It was always a way out for me. I would show up to a pool hall very nervous sometimes knowing a lot of people are there to watch me play with money on the line. Just knowing that all I had to do was drink would actually help calm me even before I started drinking. It was a bad trend. I did end up drinking every night as I got older. My tolerance got stronger as a result which meant I needed to drink more. Try and stay dry. Believe me when I say you don't want to go through what I went through. I was up to about a litre of vodka per day when I finally had enough and tried to quit cold turkey. Each time I did that I ended up in the hospital with very bad seizures along with the hallucinations and severe bruising all over my abdomen. I was lucky that I was able to finally stop. One more time would've killed me. Please stay dry, your life is worth it!
