Nerves will get you every time, trust me I know. There is no magic potion that you canFor me competition is a necessary requirement to keep me playing and wanting to improve.
I played in high school at the local bowling alley/pool room, then gave up the game until I bought a house and got a table of my own. That was almost 30 years ago. When I got the table I told myself "Now I'm really going to get good at this game." But I learned that playing and practicing by yourself gets boring pretty quickly, and most years the table sat idle.
It wasn't until I joined the two Chicago straight pool leagues that the desire really came back. That was about a year ago. It's much easier to practice now that I have an incentive.
Gambling on pool is a good incentive also, but I was never a gambler at pool - I don't have the nerves for it. (Neither here nor there, but I used to be a gambler in the biggest casino of them all - commodity futures. You can lose big money there, but not because your hand moves a millimeter off course).
take when you get nervous. The only thing that works, at least for me is keep on
playing. It's like beating a dead horse. The more you do it the less nervous you will get.
Anyway, let's go back to inspiration. It's good that 14.1 league got your blood pumping.
One more word, if you can achieve something in this game, just go and do it. Don't let
it slip away.