Rhea,
You remind me of someone I know that was totally addicted to of all things -- BINGO. She went out just about every night to get her fix. Her family was being left to fend for themselves as mommy went out to get her bingo fix. One night the topic came up about how much she loved bingo. So I said great, we have some cards and one of those spinner things, let's get all set up and play some bingo. We can play all night long. She just looked at me and said - "No thanks".
It wasn't about the bingo.
This isn't about pool.
You claim that you want to be a professional pool player. If that's the case then get off the road. Get a job. Spend your money on getting a quality table. Spend all your free time practicing. Play a tournament or two or month, or use AZ billiards to line up a good action match once a month to keep yo focused on your practice (you know like JB vs. Lou).
If you do that -- then this is about pool. If you don't it's just about you. Hey guys look at me.