thank you for sharing this. it’s very insightful.
i knew he was arrogant and smarter than me and yes he’d say weird shit but he was a nerd, i’m not, either I couldn’t be bothered or didn’t know what he was talking about and just move on. there were times I wouldn’t talk to him because instead of saying “the” he’d use some super nerd shit i couldn’t understand. our parents are fucked up - they lied to me about flying to NY because “he only turns 40 once” (NYD mind you), when i told them it’s crazy to ask me to come home on 12/29 - pfft! then they told me he passed in his sleep, i took the red eye and landed 5 hours before his viewing before the burial. upon arrival in NY, the priest mentioned his state of mind and i was floored. i started asking questions and got a raised voice for wanting to know the truth … they still try to tell me the medical examiner got his COD wrong even though they found him in a room 30 ft away.
but as my kid brother and the most beloved in the family, i loved him always - even when he was little and i used to tell him fedex dropped or we found him in the trash. if he had a problem, he knew i’d always have his back. he loved to learn, was thoughtful, accommodating, attentive, caring and loving - especially to our niece & nephew, and his students.
bless your hearts for putting up with Justin and including him in your community. i imagine this was the only forum he could really get shit off his chest and have some relief. thank you.