Sorry to pick you out of a crowd or single you out. There are others who do not know me or know anything about me or that have ever dealt with me, but feel they are some kind of authority to judge & explain what or who I am about. Everything you have written above is absolute fictional, pretend, make believe, figment of imagination. It's this alter ago second life personality so many people assume on these forums as if this is a second life they are part of & it must be real because it's written. It's not just you. Almost everybody who bashes on me & started this whole dramatic nonsense, and all supporting it, have no clue who I actually am or would even know it if I was in line behind them at wal-mart.
Fact is, I have never advertised or asked for anybody to try my cues. I have never went out actively promoting my cues or trying to sell them. I have always built cues FOR ME, my fun time thing. Never have I pretended or tried to be anything else. People who actually know me, understand this. People who have no clue or have never spoken with me, or simply ignore the things I have said since the very beginning, seem to be the ones who judge & act holier than thou. Yall make accusations & describe me & my character, without knowing me at all. It's mind boggling. The biggest self proclaimed born again Christian uses his religion as a measure of how great he is & why you should buy the cues he deals, but he's always involved in these negative threads with some self righteous judgement to pass on me & speaks of how high I will fall from such a high horse. The guy has never worked with me or even really spoken with me. Ironic, huh? The people who have the worst opinions & judgements are those who know the least. In fact, everybody in this thread talking trash like they know something, actually know me very minimal to not at all.
I manage my time well. I manage my life well. I don't need help. I have a wonderful home, two brilliant & loving children, a wife who loves me & shares life with me, all the cool toys a grown man could desire, no bills unpaid or kids hungry. Exactly what do I need help with? Especially from the point of view of a stranger who only frequents the same online forums I do? I was born into a supportive, happy family. I had a great childhood. I grew up & served my country for 7 years, then stayed at home to be a father & husband. I am a full time student, able to see my kids off to school & see them home every day. I get to take them ATVing every weekend, family trips around the globe, introduce them to endless new cultures & places. This is my life, not yours, not anybody else. I choose my own priorities. After spending time with my family, studying, doing all necessary honey-does, I may or may not have time in my shop for myself to relax & work on cues. If enough time after that, I may be able to frequent the forums or answer some of the literally thousands of emails I have. If I don't have time, it doesn't happen. And what if it doesn't?
If I don't spend time with my kids then i'm a bad father. If I do not spend time with my wife then i'm a bad husband. If I neglect either, i'm an unhappy man because I love my family & cherish that time. If I neglect school then it's pointless and a waste even being a student, and I will not get the degrees I am pursuing. If I neglect honey-does then i'm not pulling my share of parental & marital duty and therefore strain my family. Any of this stuff sucks if managed poorly. It's life critical, happiness critical.
If I am slow on cue work or communication with cue buyers, then people I don't even know get pissed off at me & say bad things about me. They start a mob bash on me & my personal character, exclaiming how horrible of a human I am. The few times I do actually get time to get online to the forums, I get to see it all unfolding. I get to see how a bunch of people who do not know me or anything about me, will judge & ridicule me as if I purposely ran over their dog or sold their children into slavery. It's ridiculous, sometimes comic, always pathetic. Sometimes I wonder if it's even really possible that people can be so ignorant yet presumptuous. They are. It's real.
So why should I care? Why should I need "help"? Why should I prioritize cues and sacrifice a very happy life? Because you, or anybody else on this forum, speculates that I should? I don't need cues, never have. I enjoy cues. I don't advertise or beg people to buy them. They approach me. I don't lie or pretend i'm anything different. I'm not arrogant or dishonorable. I'm actually brutally truthful & blunt. But that's not dramatic enough, is it? I can't be a happy cue maker who doesn't care about business or your money because my life is better than that. I can't just be a cue lover who enjoys building cues for the sheer enjoyment. Nope. I gotta kiss everybody's ass & make promises on timelines, then keep those promises by sacrificing my life & time with family so I can be in my shop for 18hrs. a day. That's pretty much the gist of it, isn't it? I have to be a lowly, poor, sad, depressed, hungry cue maker who only wants in life to meet your deadline with a god cue for cheap, and just pray that you appreciate my efforts & sacrifice enough that you'll get on AZbilliards & say something nice about me. Then I can get to do it all over again and build a life of it. Screw you, screw that. I'll give my shop & woods away to some pathetic fool before i'd ever fall into that trap. For that reason alone, I am slow & likely will not meet a deadline if you are (un)lucky enough for me to set one in the first place. I have a life to live & your money doesn't support it. If I get a cue done & you want it, then ok. If not, that's ok, too. Why hate me for it? Ironically, I see so many new guys working so hard to get into cue making so they can make a name for themselves. They're too retarded to look around & see what it's actually all about. I was. But no more. My real life is my priority. Like it or not. And no, I don't need "help" with it.