Like me or hate me, I stood up for what I personally believe. If that makes me an asshole then i'll wear that badge every time I feel urged to stand up for what I believe in. I may not always take the popular stance but i'm sure no chameleon changing colors to fit in. I don't need to wait to see what the crowd is doing before I make up my mind on how I feel. Maybe I wear my heart on my sleeve, and maybe I don't always support the popular opinion. But don't ever confuse me for not holding true to my values, whether they match your values or not. I respect others' beliefs so long as it's actually their beliefs & they are neutral enough to see the difference. We don't have to agree. Unlike a lot of folks here, I don't determine that I dislike somebody or call them names & judge their character because they don't see things the way I do. And I sure as hell don't alter my feelings to conform to what others think is best. If that makes me an asshole, then i'm straight up an asshole of assholes. Might as well accept it because it's not changing.
We all have our limitations that we set for ourselves. I have been working hard at expanding my limitations & hopefully eventually get rid of them completely. I'd like to be totally neutral. It's what I want as a human. I want to purge myself of any & all prejudice & discriminative feelings. I'd like to be able to love everybody equally, even if I have a hard time tolerating them. But i'm not there yet. What Al did offended me. He breached my limits. Is that a fault of mine for having that limit? I don't know. I think it is to a point. I wish I hadn't been quite so harsh, but then I am steadfast on the belief that if you don't express your feelings then nobody will know how you feel. Right is right & wrong is wrong. I believe he was wrong. I believe I was wrong. I just didn't know how else to handle it & I am/was angry that he did it. Someday I hope to be neutral enough to accept that people do the things they do for their own reasons & all I can control is me. But for now i'm still very much human & that shit he did pisses me off.