dont feel too sorry for jay, he beat me playing 8 ball tonight, 7-0 7-4or5, I had him beat the second set and let him off, i was ice cold the first set, I didnt hit a ball and we started, i knew that was at least a 4 game spot and i'm the weaker player. I was in horrible pain, at 5-0 i popped a couple pills and started to feel better, when we started the second set I chewed up a 2 pain pills and 1 muscle relaxor so they would work faster, I was almost pain free and could have went up 5-2 I think, I cant remember all I know was I was playing better than Jay-jay wont stall on me, if he ever did I wouldnt give him action, we had a mid size bet-enough to make it count, were friends and the bet will never effect our relationship but I cant play for free, I get odds on the $$$ 6:5 he still has the best of it, but damn it I had him, and I let him back in i did catch one bad roll, the pain started up again,
And thats what scares me, i took enough drugs to put a "Clean " person in a 12 coma and for me it helped for 20 minutes, I couldnt take any more, sitting here typing this hurts, i should be in bed on my laptop but i'm sick of that bed.
I let him off, sure he is a better player, but I have mental lapses in concentration that loses me games, I dont get hot and throw things I stay cool, but the lapses in concentration have hurt me for years, over all i'm still a winning player because when I was broke I picked my spots carefully, now in the past year i'm a losing player, i'm taking hard games, i cover my loses with rail bets. But I want to win. John Morton said "You just have to find a way to win"; to me in 90 or 91, I had that for a while. I'm not nervious about the $$$, our bet is so small that if that made me nervious I'd really be pissed. But I out played him for long enough he had to dig his way out, one bad roll and a funny hit helped but still I got weak, my concentration was fading in and out. The pain came back and thats a distraction-it wasnt bad enough to cost the set, right now I couldnt play we finished 45 minutes ago.
I cant rely on drugs to play and wont, but assuming I feel fine, I have to figure out a way to keep the focus, i have read all the books, on sports phsycology and spelling books too
. Seriously WTF do I need to do, I have a quite mind no noise, I dont get the "what if's" I dont feel pressure, i dont really look at the score, I dont play to lose for sympathy(I knew I guy who loved to lose so he could feel sorry for him self) the amount of the bet dosent matter, if I beat him 300 sets in a row bragging about it isnt important. I'm not a ego player who says " oh yeah I robbed him" i might joke about that. but that dosent distract me. I have played alot of years and have found that groove of winning when I had my chance at a high % but more often than not I lose when I have my chance. I just cant find the solution, words are the tool that will convey the solution into my game, but I have to find the root of the problem. I'm not embarassed to lose.
I'm not suppost to beat Jay all the time(maybe 38 out of 100 sets
) but I should beat him when I put myself into the spot to win tonight by playing good-I just cant hold that gear(and playing someone like Jay thats suicide), I didnt get lucky to get in the winning spot, I out played him the 2nd set and set myself up to win, I didnt let up. I played better than he did until it mattered, then I didnt(this is the root question, I wasnt playing attention to anything but the balls). Again I didnt feel any pressure and when I do I still respond the same way or play better. I have played for $$$ over 2,000 times so it aint new to me. I'm not mad I lost I dont like it, but I sure as hell would like to "Find a way to win" like RudeDog told me years ago, I can sometimes but not often enough.
All the practice in the world, having a perfect stroke, solid fundementals means shit if you cant use them when you need to, I still hit the ball fine but something aint working.
any ideas???
thanks
and yes I'm gonna play him again. I might play better than some people but I cant find a way to win, this whole post is about winning not who plays better, who wins better is what counts, and thats something over looked, people say "SVB plays better" or "Archer plays better" when was the last time you heard "------ Wins better"?. Look at the Morra/Bergman match Bregman wins better, I'm knot knocking Morra he is my friend and I have alot of respect for him, i'm just using a recent example. He plays great but not when it counted, i feel he lost for a differnt reason than I did, thats what bothers me I know why he lost I asked him it was because of ******* and he said yeah, I know why I been in that spot. of course I was told by someone here "I'm a recreational B player and was wrong on so many levels" but Morra said I was right, so much for me being a recoretional B player-what ever that means...
All the practice means shit if you cant win better, who teaches winning? other than the inner game of tennis etc, i'm done with books. Seriously who teaches winning, not shot selection or pendulem stroke but what counts HOW TO WIN!!!! the rest is bullshit when you dont win when yyou should, SVB playes 95% of the patterns in 10B I do because I have played over 20 years, One Pocket is a different thng.
I dont lose everytime I play but I dont win when I should too often. I dont expect to beat Jay in the long run-he plays better but man to lose when it was there puzzles me, i'm not upset, this is along post because i'm looking for answeres I never saw before.
Jay got KK and his $$$ in right, except he was up against AA. Bad beat, I cant remember what the odds of AA comming up against KK isnt it like 412:1???
