My apologies (This is long and heartfelt)

mattiefingaz

mattiefingaz

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Good evening all,
As the title eludes, I owe an apology to a TON of people on here. The last time I posted on this forum was a day or two before New Years Eve last year.

Yes, 54 weeks ago.

I was, what I consider, a VERY active participant in both this forum and many of the online streaming events that went on outside of here. I could map out the evenings of my week on what live events were streaming and spent hour upon hour spending time online watching these events with many people that I considered friends.

Then one day I just disappeared. And for that I truly apologize.


What I didn't realize that not only was my time online with all of you great for me, it wasn't necessarily great for my wife.

I'd love to say my life went to crap, my wife left me and I lost internet access and couldn't participate online anymore. I wish I could say that my phone got shut off and I couldn't call anyone or answer voicemails, but that would be a lie. I'd feel better saying someone made me really mad and I chose not to be around those people again. Again, that would be nowhere near the truth.
You see, I was deep. Damn near every conversation I had with my wife was about AZB, a live event, an upcoming tournament or something along those lines. She "listened"...I thought she was being supportive but apparently she was being passive and was hoping my "addiction" would pass. Eventually it all came to a head.


Bottom line is, New Year's Eve came and somewhere in the drunken haze I made a prop bet with my wife. I told her that I wasn't addicted and she called me on it. "I bet you can't go 6 months without checking out pool stuff online" Is how I think it started...Me being the consumate gambler and ultimate "one upper" said something along the lines of "Shit, I could go a year"...((remember, New Year's Eve)).

Yup, she called me on it and we had a bet.

I woke up the next day just beside myself, knowing the bet I made and knowing I could probably talk my way out of it...but I'm not that guy. She was, and remains to be the most important person in my life and if it was that important to her to make that big of a deal out of it, it was that important for me to stick to the wager.

I've spent the last 3 weeks working up the courage to write this post. I will not list the folks that I owe personal apologies to here, I will take the next few weeks in a one on one basis hoping that those that I let down can forgive me.

I'm glad to finally be back and I sincerely hope that I can pick up with the majority of the forum where I left off and make the needed amends with the rest.

Thanks for taking the time to read this to all of you.

Sincerely,

Mattie
 
6-months is a ridiculous amount of time.
Nobody can go six months without at least checking a PM box.
My mother is 96 sitting in a hospice in Vegas, and wants to know what's happening with the Reno payouts.
What if you just get an email link to some billiard warehouse
and accidently click it on.

Tough bet

Welcome back though
 
Welcome back.

Two things: Awesome will power./Sounds like an awesome, keeper wife.

Congratulations on both.
 
6 months was the the bet...I called and raised 6 months....

I just checked it...it's been since 29 December of 2009 since I made a post. Haven't watched a streaming event since then either.

I am a man of my word and I didn't follow the links in those emails. :)


I did negotiate buying bulk Master chalk in bulk and needed supplies through Ebay...Everything else came from local spots.
 
I know I'm not one of those you need to apologize to, and I know you already know this, but good Lord man, don't EVER make a bet that's gonna kick your ass win or lose!!! :grin::grin::grin:

Maniac
 
mattiefingaz said:
6 months was the the bet...I called and raised 6 months....

I just checked it...it's been since 29 December of 2009 since I made a post. Haven't watched a streaming event since then either.

I am a man of my word and I didn't follow the links in those emails. :)


I did negotiate buying bulk Master chalk in bulk and needed supplies through Ebay...Everything else came from local spots.
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Hey , remember , most of those streaming events you missed are probably archived . :grin:
 
mattiefingaz said:
Good evening all,
As the title eludes, I owe an apology to a TON of people on here. The last time I posted on this forum was a day or two before New Years Eve last year.

Yes, 54 weeks ago.

I was, what I consider, a VERY active participant in both this forum and many of the online streaming events that went on outside of here. I could map out the evenings of my week on what live events were streaming and spent hour upon hour spending time online watching these events with many people that I considered friends.

Then one day I just disappeared. And for that I truly apologize.


What I didn't realize that not only was my time online with all of you great for me, it wasn't necessarily great for my wife.

I'd love to say my life went to crap, my wife left me and I lost internet access and couldn't participate online anymore. I wish I could say that my phone got shut off and I couldn't call anyone or answer voicemails, but that would be a lie. I'd feel better saying someone made me really mad and I chose not to be around those people again. Again, that would be nowhere near the truth.
You see, I was deep. Damn near every conversation I had with my wife was about AZB, a live event, an upcoming tournament or something along those lines. She "listened"...I thought she was being supportive but apparently she was being passive and was hoping my "addiction" would pass. Eventually it all came to a head.


Bottom line is, New Year's Eve came and somewhere in the drunken haze I made a prop bet with my wife. I told her that I wasn't addicted and she called me on it. "I bet you can't go 6 months without checking out pool stuff online" Is how I think it started...Me being the consumate gambler and ultimate "one upper" said something along the lines of "Shit, I could go a year"...((remember, New Year's Eve)).

Yup, she called me on it and we had a bet.

I woke up the next day just beside myself, knowing the bet I made and knowing I could probably talk my way out of it...but I'm not that guy. She was, and remains to be the most important person in my life and if it was that important to her to make that big of a deal out of it, it was that important for me to stick to the wager.

I've spent the last 3 weeks working up the courage to write this post. I will not list the folks that I owe personal apologies to here, I will take the next few weeks in a one on one basis hoping that those that I let down can forgive me.

I'm glad to finally be back and I sincerely hope that I can pick up with the majority of the forum where I left off and make the needed amends with the rest.

Thanks for taking the time to read this to all of you.

Sincerely,

Mattie
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Dude, we sent out the dogs, put out an Amber alert, we even had Cliff Joyner looking to get that hundred from you.........

This time put an email addy in your profile so we can find you :-)

Welcome back if you're back!!! Hopefully things between you and the wife did improve. I know my wife would be over the moon if I stopped posting on AZ (as would a few AZers as well).

has it been a year? Wow time flies.
 
Jay...I've spent more on a good dinner and night out from a cash stand point...but I "won" much more than that.

JB - I've been back 3 weeks and have spent two of them on your site looking at your cases....If I sign up tomorrow am I still 12 weeks out from delivery for even a slightly modified J Flowers case?

Maniac - It did kick my ass....good thing I didn't bet not drinking. :)


Thanks for the responses guys....I really did miss this.

xoxox (in a completly heterosexual way)

Mattie.
 
I shoulda made that bet with my girlfriend on New Years this year. I would have woken up the next day and logged right on to AZB. She would of left me and I'd still have AZB ... the perfect hustle bet!
 
Yo,

Mattiefingaz. I just like saying it.

Good to see you back buddy. Give a call when you can. Lot to tell you about since that night in your mancave.

Ray
 
"I'd love to say my life went to crap, my wife left me and I lost internet access and couldn't participate online anymore."

Wanna bet?
 
Welcome back Mattie.

I was trying to reach you by PM and email last January. When you didn't reply I was worried that something bad had happened to you, thought maybe you got run over by a truck or something.

I'm glad to see you are okay and back online. See you in a chat room, soon!

Steve
 
mattiefingaz said:
Good evening all,
As the title eludes, I owe an apology to a TON of people on here. The last time I posted on this forum was a day or two before New Years Eve last year.

Yes, 54 weeks ago.

I was, what I consider, a VERY active participant in both this forum and many of the online streaming events that went on outside of here. I could map out the evenings of my week on what live events were streaming and spent hour upon hour spending time online watching these events with many people that I considered friends.

Then one day I just disappeared. And for that I truly apologize.


What I didn't realize that not only was my time online with all of you great for me, it wasn't necessarily great for my wife.

I'd love to say my life went to crap, my wife left me and I lost internet access and couldn't participate online anymore. I wish I could say that my phone got shut off and I couldn't call anyone or answer voicemails, but that would be a lie. I'd feel better saying someone made me really mad and I chose not to be around those people again. Again, that would be nowhere near the truth.
You see, I was deep. Damn near every conversation I had with my wife was about AZB, a live event, an upcoming tournament or something along those lines. She "listened"...I thought she was being supportive but apparently she was being passive and was hoping my "addiction" would pass. Eventually it all came to a head.


Bottom line is, New Year's Eve came and somewhere in the drunken haze I made a prop bet with my wife. I told her that I wasn't addicted and she called me on it. "I bet you can't go 6 months without checking out pool stuff online" Is how I think it started...Me being the consumate gambler and ultimate "one upper" said something along the lines of "Shit, I could go a year"...((remember, New Year's Eve)).

Yup, she called me on it and we had a bet.

I woke up the next day just beside myself, knowing the bet I made and knowing I could probably talk my way out of it...but I'm not that guy. She was, and remains to be the most important person in my life and if it was that important to her to make that big of a deal out of it, it was that important for me to stick to the wager.

I've spent the last 3 weeks working up the courage to write this post. I will not list the folks that I owe personal apologies to here, I will take the next few weeks in a one on one basis hoping that those that I let down can forgive me.

I'm glad to finally be back and I sincerely hope that I can pick up with the majority of the forum where I left off and make the needed amends with the rest.

Thanks for taking the time to read this to all of you.

Sincerely,

Mattie
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Allow me to re-cap what you have missed in the past year.

1) Most people here hate the APA or handicap leagues in general
2) People want to talk about aiming systems like they want a poke in the eye
3) A lot of players had played in tournaments and not gotten paid as promised
4) A few trolls have been known to hi-jack a large number of threads simply to stir up trouble

So basically, nothing has changed in the past year.

Welcome back.

Leagueguy
 
Mattie, you're dead to me, dead I tell ya.

How could you have just walked away from us like that?

Oh, sorry, you left pretty much when I began posting here regularly so I guess I don't actually know you.

Nice to make your aquaintance. :cool:

Best,
Brian kc
 
Good on you for keeping your word. The online world is nowhere near as important as the real world. Obviously you know this lol. Sometimes it gets fuzzy and it's good to get a reminder now and then.
 
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