This thread and the ignorance and hatred in these posts is exactly the reason why I a am very suicidal at this point. See I realize you don’t want to hear my lifes story but you do want see people make fun of me and call me names and accuse me of ripping off people when the truth is the furthest from these posts. The amount of people who love to see negativity and participate in negativity in pool is the reason why I am no longer doing anything for pool. I don’t want to play I don’t want to stream and I don’t want to produce any DVDS because pool doesn’t care. The people in pool DO NOT CARE. It is this same reason why pool is doomed for a slow but very painful death.
See you people don’t even read you just join in with bitter negative comments. I never got any money for those DVDS I sent Jay. Yet there are many people which think I got money for something and didn’t send it which is furthest from the fact as possible. There are many many people who have ordered things who got them quickly. The fact is Jay helfert either got those DVDS he is simply lying about it to cause me personal damage. In so much to the point that I am very suicidal now. I don’t care about life, fighting to survive, pool, or anything I want to crawl into a ball and DIE. PERIOD. The human mind can only take so much abuse. Is this unrealistic, maybe to you it is but the pain in my mind and my heart is real.
Say for instance Jay actually didn’t get the package that was mailed via PO BOX to PO BOX I find it REALLY REALLY hard to believe 1 out of 4 packages come up missing when as I stated before the Bad Blood Box was mailed the same exact way same packaging just a few days later. So in that fact Jay you must apologize for all this negative bullshit which you have started to hurt ME personally you have hurt my feelings to an unbearable point and the pain keeps on coming the longer you do not acknowledge YOU WERE wrong for starting this hatefest thread. As I have told you in my poetic suicide note if you can apologize and remove this nasty thread it will give me faith that you actually did not get the package and you would like to help a fellow human being. I will re make the DVDS for you and send them AGAIN and then you can pay me so I may have the strength to continue to live. I will believe you if you believe me because contrary to what you keep saying no matter what is told you THE DVDS WERE MAILED to you as I told you I mailed them when I did still you insisted to call me a liar and destroy my character yet again in a public forum.
I don’t know what I’m doing with my life if I can choose to hang on because pool was everything to me and now I cannot stand the thought of helping something so negative and nasty which has since stabbed me so many times the knife is almost real.
See the difference between me and you is I am a human being. I feel pain when people hurt my feelings with lies. I feel pain when I was hit by a car and my car was totaled when I did absolutely nothing to warrant such punishment. I feel extremely intense about the fact that Michigan law will not give me any money to fix my car. I feel extremely angry that a police officer lied about me going 85 miles an hour in a 82 Ford. I feel depressed that the economy is so bad even with all of my talents I cannot make enough money to survive. I used to feel happy when I played pool or covered matches on my channel. I feel completely hopeless when my bills are due and there is no money to pay for them. I have felt happy and love when my girlfriend would show me attention. Now I feel despair because on top of all these things I feel emotionally destroyed because you decided that it was ok to post a bunch of lies about me. You sir are the one who is untrustworthy because I’m trusting you with my life and you show no compassion.
You are wrong. Not me, I’m tired of fighting to survive in this rat race to the point I have given up. I am a dead man walking filled with so much emotion what comes out is emotionless. The minute someone told me about your post I was filled with hatred blood curdling death fantasies ran through my mind. I knew what you had done. I tried to not care but I’m not dead inside like you are. I went outside to stand in the pouring rain to try to find a reason to wake up. To come out of this slipping reality before me and of course my sanity was questioned. Yet it felt great to have the rain wash over me it reminded me I was alive.
See it wouldn’t help to call anyone because this is a perpetual feeling brought on and fed by this bitter world and the people that cause to harm me personally. I’ve wanted to hurt myself since I was 12 years old but I always used it as a mechanism to cope but I’ve never thought about it so uncontrollably until now. See Jay Helfert has no compassion he has no love for his fellow man if he did he would simply allow faith to take over. I will prove a point. A man does not lie against another man and think there will not be consequences. You are either outright lying scamming me because you know I will be evicted shortly because I need that payment for rent. OR you didn’t get them but you lack any semblance of being a human being so you cannot bring yourself to apologize and let faith take over. I’m giving you the power to make me want to live yet you make fun of me. That creates even more hopelessness.
See evidently Jay you have never been a human being who had feelings who had them hurt in such a damaging lie. You need the help Jay not me, I need you to help me understand how can you be such a shallow man, but YOU are the one that needs the help because your not human. People need to feel bad for YOU, that you feel the need to damage my reputation personally with lies.
Do you understand me?
I think you have bad timing to be funny. The guy is feeling overwhelmed and needs to seek help and I hope he does soon. Mike, your getting alot of people worried, so call some one and talk to them, you will see this is a just a small bump in the road and not really a big deal. BTW, I think you have done some nice work in the pool streaming area and hope you continue.
I think you have bad timing to be funny. The guy is feeling overwhelmed and needs to seek help and I hope he does soon.
See it wouldn’t help to call anyone because this is a perpetual feeling brought on and fed by this bitter world and the people that cause to harm me personally. I’ve wanted to hurt myself since I was 12 years old but I always used it as a mechanism to cope but I’ve never thought about it so uncontrollably until now. See Jay Helfert has no compassion he has no love for his fellow man if he did he would simply allow faith to take over. I will prove a point. A man does not lie against another man and think there will not be consequences. You are either outright lying scamming me because you know I will be evicted shortly because I need that payment for rent. OR you didn’t get them but you lack any semblance of being a human being so you cannot bring yourself to apologize and let faith take over. I’m giving you the power to make me want to live yet you make fun of me. That creates even more hopelessness.
See evidently Jay you have never been a human being who had feelings who had them hurt in such a damaging lie. You need the help Jay not me, I need you to help me understand how can you be such a shallow man, but YOU are the one that needs the help because your not human. People need to feel bad for YOU, that you feel the need to damage my reputation personally with lies.
Do you understand me?
MOST IMPORTANTLY though get some help, the professional kind, and i'm being 100% sincere.
I find it really strange someone should ask that I apologize? Why would I apologize to someone with the character of that of Jay helfert? I don’t give two ****s if you are are the Queen of Scotland I spit on your grave for how you have treated me. You are not above reproach. I did absolutely nothing wrong and in fact allowed him much more leeway to just apologize and take back his words that would mean a lot more than ignoring the situation. See there are strict principals involved here which is why this will never just be let go. I could never go ahead and just go ahead spend more money which I do not have and send a package without firstly knowing and having an apology that he accused me of lying. I know I sent his package, he knows I sent his package because my girlfriend told him personally she was there when I went to the post office. Yet he still claims I never sent the package because he is accusing me of ripping him off. Yes I need money to survive but my character is not that of a thief which you are portraying me to be.